FINALLY!!!

 Miles (Left) and Jaxon (Right)

Elliot holding his youngest brother Miles for the first time.

 He likes him!

I am sure we will have many more pictures and posts to share, but here is a start!  In short, we went in on Sunday evening 12/19/10 about 7:30 and they were both born about 11:30 pm.  Jaxon was born first weighing 6.0 lbs and 19.75 inches, then Miles next at 6 lbs 3 oz and 21 inches.  They were both taken to the NICU for four hours to be observed, then were found to be doing great and were released from the NICU and sent to our room.  Jaxon has actually been shuttled back and forth to the NICU because he kept having struggles breathing, and is now up there for the night.  Doc says he has a small pneumothorax which they are trying to treat with 100% oxygen in a tent.  They will check him again tomorrow morning and hopefully things will have improved so he can breathe a little easier.  Miles has been a champ and has been down here with us the whole time.  Elliot has actually seen both kids, but only was able to hold Miles.  I am not sure Elliot knows what to make of the situation, but he did say that we needed to sing to them when they started crying.  So far he has been a good big brother.  Thanks so much to our awesome neighbors (the Rushtons), for watching Elliot and taking him in at the drop of a hat yesterday so we could run in here to the hospital.  Chelsea is recovering well from her C-section, although she is still heavily medicated so who knows how she will do when she can't have the narcotics...hopefully well.  Interesting note, does anyone remember or know what else happened on Sunday, December 19th exactly six years ago?  We will both be posting pictures on facebook and this blog, so check in later if you would like to know/see more!

Fun at the museum

I'm not sure why I'm so anxious to get these babies here. If they weren't twins I'd still have 4 weeks to go. Sheesh! But alas, the wait continues.

Yesterday was a great day though. I had a MD apt. NO CHANGES...lovely. We took Elliot to the Childrens museum. Even though I've taken myself off bedrest....J.R. still had to push me around in a wheelchair due to my lack of stamina and lung space and all the other pains that come along with carrying so much extra weight. I can't wait till walking from point A to B doesn't make me want to cry from hip, back, pelvic etc pain. WOW, there I go again...complain, complain.

It was great watching Elliot play and spending time with J.R. That could potentially be our last fun outing as a family of 3. Crazy! Trips like that will never be so easy.

Elliot is obsessed with Santa. I don't blame him, he is pretty neat! He also loved the little reindeer lady at the entrance. It took him forever to get brave enough to approach her, but was more than happy to take a picture. He loved her blinking nose.

So happy for the season. The excitement in kids eyes. The opportunity to teach about why giving gifts is a tradition. The pondering of Jesus' birth and the anticipation of my own birth experience. I feel so blessed and loved! What a wonderful season!

Things are looking up

It's amazing how one day I can feel totally helpless, depressed and out of control and then....the sun comes up the next day.

That's exactly how this weekend was. On Friday I thought I was going crazy...literally. Then when my MD rounded on Saturday and told me I might get to go home, all of a sudden I felt in control again.  My brain had been constantly fighting between wanting to have the babies early just to get me out of the hospital and be with Elliot vs. keeping the babies in longer for their own good.  I must be nuts actually letting my brain think I'd sacrifice my own kids wellness with my selfishness of wanting a change in scenery. WOW! What a rollercoaster of emotions.

But now I am home and although I'm still sitting on a couch all day at least I'm in control of my actions. No more needing permission to shower, eat dinner on the couch rather then in my hospital bed, taking rides in a wheelchair just to see life beyond my hospital door...etc.... I get to make my own choices and it's awesome!

To make our day home from the hospital that much more awesome we closed the deal on our new van!! A 07' Honda Odyssey. It may have a lot of miles on it, but it's got all the sweet features you could want. J.R. was great and wheeling and dealing for a good deal too so we feel like we scored on the price tag too.  I hate shopping for a new car so this was a HUGE relief to have done before the babies got here and we were desperate.

Elliot get home tomorrow. Contractions are still minimal. I got almost all my christmas shopping done (thanks to the internet).  I'm not on any side-effect filled meds. I don't have to sit on a monitor 2 + times a day. I just get to relax and wait patiently for these babies to decide when their ready to join us. And I know it's in huge part due to all the prayers, thoughts and love that has been sent from so many people. I feel so blessed! Thank you so much!

LIFE IS GOOD AGAIN!

My reason for lonesomeness....

SO STINKING CUTE! Miss you Elliot! LOVE YOU!

So full of feeling

Feeling sappy
Feeling blessed
Feeling loved
Feeling watched over
Feeling worried
Feeling peace
Feeling movement
Feeling grateful
Feeling reflective
Feeling urgency
Feeling innadequate
Feeling empowered
Feeling missed
Feeling intensely loved by a family that is bound together for eternity!

It's amazing how close I've felt to my dad this past week. I have such a strong feeling that he is with me and that he has had his hand in making this experience so smooth, wonderful and unstressful.
Love you dad. Stay close. This road isn't over yet. 3